GONE.

Written by: Nyandano Tshikororo

Caught in the darkest moment of my life but I saw the light every time I looked in his eyes. He didn’t, but I felt the reawakening of souls in the shadows flying all high bringing nothing but peace in our spirits. Growing in one soulful memory.

Cost to cost a millions to lose your love. Is it over yet? I felt every piece of my heart shatter as tears roll down my face. Did he just left every moment we had. What happened to growing old till nothing separate our souls. I miss you.

We miss You, feel like screaming but I (sigh)…. how about I laugh at myself for falling for you and every thing I thought you were. You broke me.

Now my kids need me, my heart is with them but my mind is long gone and my soul is torn. Love is a sore pain, Lord heal her.

A heavy heart drowning in a deep ocean, the pain keeps growing and growing day by day. “Oh how I loved you”, I tried a thousand times to draw you near but you were never there. Now, I pour out this sorrowful melody in her ears. What I feel, she feels. I think she’s my guardian angel but she ran away from me, did I make her run away from me? She’s still away but I know as soon as she hears my heart broke it’ll kill her.

I feel like blaming her for the costs of my heart’s decisions but I blame myself, I blame my heart. I failed you Nyandi, I made a promise, we made a promise. I know it wasn’t much but I couldn’t, I was jailed, I thought it was love but I was falling for a trap. I should have listened to your tears that day but I thought they were tears of joy. Where are you?

I cried out for healing but no one heard my cry, I covered my face with a smile and they thought all was still well. Well inside but I’m dead inside, I’m sinking alone. Was love meant to hurt this much? Can I start all over? Can I…(heavy breath) Can we fix it? Tell me, where did I go wrong!?

I always think you’d call just to say ‘Hi‘; but you seem far away, far away from us, far away from home. You left me, my heart feels heavy without you next to me, without you my love I’m empty inside and out.

I know I might look like a stranger in your eyes but never in your heart. I wished on so much more, and still praying for more but gone. I just can’t ignore the fact that we were once a fairytale. You know I ….