I’m out of words to write but I have alot in mind, I have a lot to talk about, I have alot of questions to ask him. Few days ago we had a little chat, talking about his friend. How she did me bad and how she ruined us, yet she’s still going rack and ruining all my relationships with my loved ones.
The “she ruined us” part Clement didn’t want to talk about it, he kept on reminding me how I trusted her, all though I felt like he had much to say, we both just went silent, I couldn’t hang up. “Uhmm thanks for the call”, I said. He told me to take it easy and that was it.
Firstly I didn’t expect him to call after telling him what was bothering me. I thought he wanted nothing to do with me, I thought I’m worthless to him. But it seems he still cares more than I never imagined.
Do I still worth the same to you? Do I still owe you more of my love? But where are We? I miss my Clemy.
At this point I’m still asking myself as to why he just disappeared and still want to be there for me.
What’s his fear? Are we still on the “you are too young” thing? Well he never mentioned anything about never leaving me, nor braking my heart; and the one that showed up and said that seems like he ain’t for me. I tried not to but I kept thinking about him, can’t say I’m going to change him, I can’t, I just can’t.
He made a promise but i imagined Clement saying that not him, but he was right in front of me; and myself just staring at him with my eyes full of tears. I guess I was too broken to move on, but not as broken as he is. The conversations we used to have left me hanging up on thoughts and having mixed feelings about the whole situation. Deep down I don’t want to take him back there but I fear I might, imagine telling him that I’m still inlove with Clement, who I still don’t know if I should call an Ex, damn it’ll break him so much he would never believe in love again.
He was scared, still scared to fall, but I’m stuck between letting go of Clement and staying in this relationship.
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