Today is the day I feel like I wanna and I feel like I don’t wanna say it. A lot has occurred, and now I’m in a fucked but controlled situation. You wanna scream? You wanna cry? You call him and just start shouting at him for all that’s happening and how I’m feeling right now.
A few weeks ago I coincidently spent a night out with him and his friend. How weird it was. I had to light a few cigarettes to cool down, he saw and I’m sure he was disgusted. We had talk about that, I said I’ll stop, funny how he said he didn’t know me, so I said let’s play this game. Either way it was more fun to play it confront of every one until it was just the two of us having to talk about it and made up the very same moment. Man that was quick. I still feel more for him.
But I now have to let go as I see we’re this is going. I have to let you go Clemy. So many what if’s after what I found out about him. I loved what he had but if I don’t let go now I will get hurt badly later. A lot he wanna say but he doesn’t say. A lot in my mind just don’t know if it’s true.
Although I don’t quickly wanna conclude it , he still gives all the reason to. I’m scared but I’m okay. I love this young woman I’m becoming. I’ve always and will always go for what’s best.
How I’ll disappear, he’ll never see it but it will be for the better.
Dear Clement
The sun’s going down now, but my love for you burns brighter than ever. I love you. I guess I’ll see you in the next life time
Yours Truly
Nyandano
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